Day 3, check, 997 to go. Wahe Guru! Getting in the groove of 1000 days of commitment. I have never committed to a particular thing for 1000 days. I have been in a committed relationship for 19 years, a committed mother for 20 years, I have committed to a 90 day and many 40 day meditations. But 1000 days...I had a few months to roll it over and think about it, but until you are in it, it's hard to predict the vibe. It is something that you just have to go through, very much one foot in front of the other. One day in front of the other. My life is revolved around the accomplishment of this daily practice and the daily report here on this blog all of the sudden.
So I practiced this meditation today for 31 minutes in the bathtub with a straight spine with my kirtan kriya timer and without music, just the sound of my sweet voice. And with consciousness on my voice, so listening to the sounds coming from not only my mouth, but my throat chakra into my ears. From my pineal through my pituitary and out into infinity. From my first finger, jupiter, to saturn, to sun, to mercury. Sa Ta Na Ma. over and over. But the breaks along the way bring shifts in consciousness. The breaks are the changes from 5 minutes out loud to 5 minutes whispering, to 10 minutes silent but still mentally chanting, back to 5 minutes whisper and finally 5 minutes out loud. Today's meditation brought awareness to the silence. The mental battle was in the silence. I was incredibly impressed with the mind's ability to wonder all over the place even as I sat with straight spine, heart lifted, chin tucked, mudras moving with each mental sound on time.
But the yogi notices and recognizes the mind's wander. The graceful battle to release and remain present to the sound to the experience. To release the subconscious bologna. But to witness it all, rethink it, re-feel it one last time before the meditation dumps that subconscious garbage. Yep, that's the life of a yogi. So much easier though than to hold it and keep it. These tools, this technology, priceless. Thank God, Thank Guru! Thank you Yogi Bhajan and Guru Ram Das. So incredibly blessed for these teachings. So deeply thankful.
Sat nam, wahe guru!