Day 25, check, 975 more to go. Wahe Guru!
I have been absent from writing my blog for the last 11 days because the guy in the pic, my dad, invited me to fly with him on a trip to Paris and London. This was my first European vacation and it was amazing! I carried my meditation practice with me like a trusty travel bag of 31 minutes of kirtan kriya each day. It was not convenient for me or my parents to excuse myself to meditate, but I did it anyway and they were gracious and understanding. They cracked up after every time when I said something like, "day 17, check 983 more to go." That, girl, you are crazy, but I respect it kind of laugh.
The practice is only 25 days in, but already feeling like home. I could tell, especially in another country and 6-hour time zone difference, that when so many things were foreign, that this meditation grounded and centered me right back into myself, into my home.
I determined from my time away from blog writing that I should take days between blogs to feel the impact of the meditation and to be able to report on the shifts.
The L-shape visualization tends to be the hot topic during the meditation. It takes a real commitment to keep the focus on the third eye point while ushering the waves of movement from the pineal to pituitary. I find myself in and out of my body. What I mean is that sometimes I am centered and the energy is running perfectly through me and other times it is running through an imagined version of me. When I recognize that I am imagining the process I have to shake it off a bit and re-center. At times it feels a longer distance from pineal to pituitary and other times the distance is very very short. It's a shapeshifter of a visualization and I am having fun discovering it and myself within it.
I feel my pineal pulsing. I love it. It makes me feel like my brain is growing, it is a true physical sensation. I did get a headache one day at the beginning of this journey on day 5 or so due to the downward energy hitting the wrong spot. I am very careful to direct the energy to pineal since then because it was a horrible and concentrated pain in my head. Holding concentration on the third eye point is still a challenge, but becoming easier each day and making sense, subtly.
Last night I was chatting with my husband at the dining table when I began to notice myself in the conversation. More like witnessed. The clarity of the observation was the strengthening of my auric field and my arc line. I watched my self-assuredness, softness, and all around feminine nature as a solid healing presence for my husband and myself. It was the effects of the practice of kirtan kriya, my essence resembled my soul and it was familiar and beautiful. It's as if this practice is extracting my true essence or self out from a deep place within me to serve as the "chief" of my life. Raw, true, maskless, but fully at ease. Happening fast, but not a moment faster than I am ready for it. It's all moving in sync, everyone got the memo, each and every cell, each and every thought, each and every breath. I am experiencing the effects of a cleared and cleaned consciousness. A consciousness that is shamelessly aligning with my soul.
I was explaining meditation to my children today expressing that a bath is how we clean our body and meditating is how we clean our minds. My daughter said, that we should just meditate while taking a bath then we can clean our bodies and our minds at the same time. She's brilliant and funny!
Here are a few pics from Paris and London. Sat Nam!